I have had a big week. My husband and I run a home care business together. It is a new business and we growing and it is busy. I have been making slow and steady progress working on my TMS this last year. Four or five days ago my husband started having some minor speech problems. He wanted to say one word but another would come out, for instance he would say day instead of night. They were always associated to each other and in the same family so it would make sense but it was bothering him. I think they call it asphasia. My husband doesn't worry about anything, I worry about everything. He never goes to the doctor, I always go to doctors. He has never stayed in a hospital, I have had five surgeries and two babies in a hospital. So when he says something has changed and is bothering him, I notice. Yesterday I called our primary care physician for an appointment for him(with his permission) and the receptionist wanted to get him on the phone with the nurse right away. We were in the middle of a busy work day. The nurse insisted he go to the ER immediately. So I dropped everything and drove him to the ER. They admitted him and started running CAT scans and an MRI. I could feel the internal panic the moment the nurse got on the phone with him. Of course, their concern was stroke. Amidst all this crisis, I had to take over running the business and along with new calls for immediate need of assistance in getting caregivers to hospitals, many other little random scheduling complications began to occur. It was insane. I have not only been in hyper drive ever since, but suddenly forced to take on challenges I never would have chosen on my own. My husband is the one who does all of the case management, sales, assessment of new clients condition etc. With my propensity to absorbing just about every medical condition I come into contact with, I prefer to stay in the office and do all the administrative tasks and manage the caregivers. Tomorrow I have to go to a hospital and do the intake on an elderly woman with advanced dementia and pneumonia. It never occurred to me something would happen to my husband and I would be in this role. He is in the hospital and they still don't know what is going on. I, of course, have been having "stroke symptoms"(one sided numbness in my face, head ache on the right side, numbness in my hands...) Okay, I say this with humor but I keep thinking "what are the chances that he is in the hospital getting CAT scans and I am the one who drops dead trying to take care of everything?" This is just stressful and it makes sense my TMS symptoms would be kicking in. I am not really panicking in the way I would have before. I am just observing "Really, you're going to do this right now?" It is terrifying for me when life gets this real. I also feel so sad that I spent so much time arguing with my husband. What was so important? I want so much to convince my nervous system that everything is okay. No matter what happens, it is okay.