In the last four days I've been doing great at pivoting my approach towards pain.. from focusing, fearing, spending hours trying to heal...to just not giving a shit, knowing I'll be fine either way, to not track or analyze pain, and cutting down journaling and meditation to thirty minutes. I replaced all my tms healing time with woodworking, programing, and more family time. My anxiety and occasional depression symptoms are almost non existent. I've increased my poor appetite to be ravenous. I've enjoyed my hobbies. The pain is still there at the same level. At times my mind gravitate towards it and I have to say to myself this is fine but there's nothing to see here. I've also noticed how often my mind plays critical dialogue in the form of my wife even though she doesn't think what my thoughts say she does (projection) I'm very happy with the other changes (thought it is a three day weekend and I have to go back to work after a long covid break tomorrow) but I'm a little concerned that the pain hasn't budged at all in this time window. Trigger points in my pain area have actually gotten worse. I don't think I can care any less on my day to day (thought this posting sure seems ironic huh). It feels like a step in the right direction but I suppose I thought my brain would yeild at least a bit with how successfully I was able to embrace that mindset.