Hi everyone, Two weeks ago I started swimming again after almost two years of not doing it. (In the meantime I took some Feldenkrais lessons, and there I learned I was doing too much, wanting to reach too far, stretch too long. Nobody told me that until I experienced some pain. That was a big learning experience.) During these months, especially after October I have been very much engaged in meditation and mindfulness. I love meditating at night, it helps me relax, it is a time for myself, I am allowed not to do anything, not to go anywhere, just stay and be. I will never stop that practice! Now, with my swimming my orofacial, cervical and shoulder pain are back. I am very afraid of it. I remember very vividly what it was like almost two years ago. Today I was standing in line for 10 minutes with a bag in my hands, and I could barely stay, I started feeling dizzy and pain in my neck. I don´t want to give up swimming, yet my doctor says "Go easy"And I find it very difficult. My swimming teacher says I am too tense! And it is a characteristic in my life! I was just trying to water the pots outside, and made a mess with the hose, sprinkled water all over me and treated my body and my mind less than gently. I believe I am the problem, besides my jaw joint and my neck and shoulder. And you may think: And this person is doing Mindfulness and Meditation? Isn´t something wrong? I have been deliberately not coming to the forum in order to try to "forget" . Yet it was always in the back of my mind. And when I started swimming the thought came "What if you hurt yourself?" So, not a success story. Just an in between part of the story.