Hi
@Mariskah, and congratulations on this - it sounds like you have received absolute proof of how the TMS mechanism works!
Your poor primitive brain is still trying to protect you from self-discovery, but it looks like you are winning the battle. Its attempts to keep you in fear are starting to look a bit pathetic.
Have you read or heard about Claire Weekes? Her little book,
Hope And Help For Your Nerves is a brilliant and compassionate resource for anxiety and has helped thousands all over the world since she wrote it in 1969. It's fantastic when combined with TMS work. It's the second book that saved me after Dr Sarno.
Keep up the great work, you're getting there!