This is my first post on any forum ever. I am not used to expressing myself at all (hint to TMS much?) .I also fit perfectly the TMS prone profile: Perfectionism, goodism, conscientiousness... always putting others' needs before my own and not caring about how I feel or what I want.
I am a pianist who for years now is barely able to practice. Whenever I try to practice I start getting pain and directly get discouraged/depressed. It gave me years of suffering and feelings of worthlessness. I would be worried to use my hands in any way, went to many doctors, physical therapists, would put ice MANY times a day on my hands trying desperately to heal, non-stop stretching, took a lot of pills (anti-inflammatories, pain killers, muscle relaxants...)
I can have some doubts as to whether some of the pain is RSI related since piano can be quite demanding on the hands, but I am sure that I have TMS (neck, shoulder, and back pain)
What does being pain-free mean to me? Life. Freedom. Being myself again. I can play piano finally. Without constantly being afraid. I can follow my dreams (that already contain a lot of pressure since many people told me im wrong in pursuing a music career since it is not safe... add to that constant pain and not being able to practice?
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Looking forward for this journey of self discovery, accepting myself, and getting rid of this pain.
I am a pianist who for years now is barely able to practice. Whenever I try to practice I start getting pain and directly get discouraged/depressed. It gave me years of suffering and feelings of worthlessness. I would be worried to use my hands in any way, went to many doctors, physical therapists, would put ice MANY times a day on my hands trying desperately to heal, non-stop stretching, took a lot of pills (anti-inflammatories, pain killers, muscle relaxants...)
I can have some doubts as to whether some of the pain is RSI related since piano can be quite demanding on the hands, but I am sure that I have TMS (neck, shoulder, and back pain)
What does being pain-free mean to me? Life. Freedom. Being myself again. I can play piano finally. Without constantly being afraid. I can follow my dreams (that already contain a lot of pressure since many people told me im wrong in pursuing a music career since it is not safe... add to that constant pain and not being able to practice?
)Looking forward for this journey of self discovery, accepting myself, and getting rid of this pain.