I am having a particularly bothersome pain and stiffness in my upper back today. It happened while I was thinking about some research papers/mini thesis I have to do for grad school. I feel very clueless and like I won't be able to do it. This then made me think I may get a B at best and that felt unacceptable to me. I stopped and thought about this, hoping the "awareness" would help the pain go away but it hasn't. I also noticed this may be linked to telling my parents the other day I did well in my classes and my Mom said something along the lines of "im going to start expecting all A's now." Maybe I'm angry at her for saying that and now I'm feeling pressured? This must not be subconscious though if I'm writing about it here. So I am confused as to what is actually causing the pain and what I need to do to get it to go away? Other topics: My sister pressuring me to go to a wedding that I definitely do not have time for. This correlates to the class mentioned above. The class is only 5 weeks and a lot is due at the same time as the wedding, not to mention I'm already worried about getting it done in the first place. I then started daydreaming or visualizing in my head being angry at her as it reminded me of other times I felt like family pushing me into something that would be bad for me in my future. I seem to be getting more annoyed by my roommate recently. He just got back in town after being out for a couple weeks. It seems like whatever he does bothers he, particularly noise wise. I noticed it more recently since I would hear him in the morning (he wakes up about 1.5hrs before me). I use to put on a loud fan in my room but I seem to keep sneezing and having some weird symptoms so I was wondering if the fan was blowing some dirt/dust and haven't used it. Since then I hear him way more in the morning and it messes up my REM sleep. Since then, I have started to notice his noise at other times later in the day. My mind focuses on the noises and it seems like an affront to me, like he his loudly "throwing" things around instead of placing them down. Sometimes I am afraid of conflict to confront these things. On another level I am afraid I will "lose something" if I do confront. Like if they just disagree and I have to find a new apartment since the lease is coming up. I hate hate moving, and hate it even more having all these TMS symptoms. Also unsure about wanting to move to another part of the country in a year or two and starting the next stage of my life(career,family,etc).