journaling today was tough, but good. Got a bit of good crying in. meditation was also easier than expected, I sat on my porch next to a soothing fountain and surprisingly, managed to keep focused for around 12 minutes. I still had lots of random thoughts and it really was hard to "relax" my left leg, which is the source of most of my recent pain. But I feel like i eventually got there. A couple things i did today that i'm uncertain about - i talked to a colleague who I had been sharing some of this with over the last few months - her mom has had similar chronic sciatica pain for 3 years and she said that she is driving her (my friend) crazy. So after a bit of prodding I sent her the link to the book and told her that so far it's working but i'm not a testimonial yet. Frankly she is also about to have her gallbladder out and when she was telling me about it I was thinking - TMS, TMS! but I held back a bit. I want to help others but I need to deal with my own stuff. I don't know if talking about it with other people outside of my husband will be good or bad. I guess if her mom barfs on it I just really don't want to know. Does anyone else have experience sharing Dr. Sarno early on? Part of me wants to yell from the rooftops, but fixing everyone is not my problem and something I need to be aware of. Once I'm better, fine, I'll tell folks, but I'm not fixed in 6 days and don't want to move backwards. With another colleague I also kind of volunteered to do something and I know I shouldn't take on more stress. I am smart enough to know I need to backpeddle and he is a good enough friend I can do it without fear of reprisal. but I am still kicking myself for going there.