Yesterday was the first real journal exercise of the program. I chose one of my past traumatic experiences and just started writing, unsure of what was going to happen. About two minutes later, holy cow I just started bawling like a baby! I can't remember the last time I cried. It came out of nowhere. I guess I really had no idea how much I have bubbling under the surface. After that cry, I felt really good. It had made me sort of tired, but I felt refreshed at the same time and ended up having a good day. I've been thinking about my Dad and his own mental and physical health. I know he had an awful childhood which in turn shaped the way he raised me, and because we are similar in many ways I feel like his health problems must also be TMS like, but it's quite unusual. About fifteen years ago he started getting dizzy all the time, it was really bad. He was misdiagnosed with Meniere's Disease, then they thought he maybe had early symptoms of MS. However, for the past ten years his only problem is that he can't hear. His right ear is entirely "deaf", and he can barely hear in his left. Sometimes, however, his hearing will open up for a few days. He thinks it's when he's been eating healthy, but could a healthy diet be a placebo effect, because eventually his hearing will vanish again. Has anyone ever heard of TMS manifesting itself with hearing loss?