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Job Fear & Outcome Independence

Discussion in 'General Discussion Subforum' started by epitomeofhealth, Aug 22, 2016.

  1. epitomeofhealth

    epitomeofhealth New Member

    I'm struggling with a decision, and I'd love insight from you all.

    Backstory: I came down with CFS (extreme fatigue) symptoms in March, and I ultimately had to quit working and move in with my parents in June, as I could barely get around the house. Now, almost 3 months later, I'm feeling about ~75% better -- my GI symptoms are gone, and while the dizziness and fatigue are still there, I can live a relatively normal life now.

    I'm set on returning to New York City, so I've started the job hunt there. I've always wanted to go into teaching, and I have interviews set up for teaching jobs in charter schools, which for the past few years has been what I've been dying to do. But now, I'm starting to second-guess myself. Teachers--especially in low-income charter schools--have an incredibly high burnout rate. And seeing as I'm convinced mental burnout/perfectionism/pushing myself too hard/goodism/etc. is what got me into this mess, I'm kind of scared this job would do the same thing. I hate making decisions out of fear, but I also really am scared that I'll just fall apart under intense stress, working the 11-hour days that most first-year teachers work.

    Anyone have any thoughts to share? I'm torn between the "outcome independence" of taking the job anyway and not giving the chronic fatigue any credence, vs. the "taking care of yourself" and "saying 'no' to intense stress".

    Thanks so much.
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  2. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi. I'd give charter school teaching a chance. If you start to feel it's too much, ease up, or leave. Working ll-hour days would be hard on anyone.

    Try to modify your perfectionism. I work for a perfectionist book publisher and had to learn not to expect of myself what he expects of me. He's far from perfect himself! The same with "goodism." Try to modify it.

    Can you talk to some charter school teachers and learn how they are handling the work?
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  3. Ines

    Ines Well known member

    You have to try or you might regret it. One step at a time. The worst that can happen is you quit and move back to your parents but at least you tried. The best that can happen is your CFS can suck it and you have a wonderful teaching career while feeling fulfilled and happy. : )
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  4. EricFeelsThisWay

    EricFeelsThisWay Peer Supporter

    That's a tough call. I would suggest being more hesitant. I moved to NYC with TMS symptoms and I have expanded my world view and have taken many opportunities presented to me, but the symptoms have not alleviated. Sometimes I wonder if my TMS knowledge only enables me to do MORE THINGS with the same old symptoms. That's not the point, is it? Inner peace is the point...I believe. So go into it knowing it's a toss-up. If you could do more personal work living with your parents (i.e. Therapy, journaling, etc), then stay. But by no means let your symptoms stop you from doing what you want to do.
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