journalling: something I don't do enough of. I have been having some more flair ups here and there. Sometimes minor other times major and nausea. A lot of the time I'm able to shake it. Which is just another sign it's TMS. I fully except it's TMS or PPD and continue to do the programs. The problem I found is that as I journalled I realized I fear that I won't get better than where I am. Secondly I know that when lots of negative thoughts come in they bring pain. So I fear negative thoughts or beliefs also. Thought stopping doesn't have a long term solution. I think the way out is to accept that thoughts don't define who we are. How do I do this with thoughts? I feel like I hit a wall and am starting over. It feels as though there is this big pile of backlogged fear based thoughts waiting in line to confront me and challenge me. Associated with the negative thoughts is pain. So I realize to a degree I fear the pain. Not as much as before but also more than before. Being valiant lasted a few months but I am feeling frustrated that this keeps coming up. Now I know why but sometimes it evades me what to do. How do I accept that I have negative thoughts which cause pain and fear without feeding them and embracing them?