samuelrhys
Peer Supporter
Hi all,
It's been a while since I've been here.
Just a quick overview:
I'm 30 from England. I had a bit of a troubled upbringing as my mother was an alcoholic and I got a lot of abuse, I also have perfectionist traits and tend to bottle up my emotions - although I got better at dealing with my feelings and have not had any symptoms in over 2 years, now I am struggling again.
My history with what I believe were all psychosomatic:
Before leaving the Czech Republic, I got bronchitis and a nasty cough that lasted almost a month, this was common for me previously to get some symptoms before I travelled. When I got back to the UK for a month before heading to Madeira in March, I felt anxious about travelling again. I was also dealing with issues in a relationship and the end of a work contract so lost half of my income. This was when I started experiencing gut issues—diarrhoea, more gas, bloating—which improved a little once I got to Madeira. However, with the ongoing relationship problems and lack of stability in my life, the symptoms returned. I then noticed some bright red blood when I went to the toilet. This worsened my anxiety, and Googling the symptoms didn't help.
So, I went to the doctor in Madeira. He prescribed some tablets for anxiety and ordered a colonoscopy. A few days later, my mum died (you can see one of my old posts about my mother), so I returned to the UK and missed the colonoscopy appointment. I then saw a doctor in the UK who, after asking me some questions, thought that I just had some small tear somewhere and gave me a drink to take. A few days after my mum's funeral the diarrhoea stopped.
I went to the mountains in Bulgaria a week later, and the first week was without any issues, but I started getting anxious again and started getting diarrhoea. After a week of diarrhoea every day, I then noticed a small pool of bright red blood, so the next day I flew home. I did a stool test which came back positive for blood, and blood tests which say I am anaemic and something is off with my liver.
I certainly know the diarrhoea is stress-induced as every time I felt calmer this stopped, such as now coming back to the UK and being around family the moment I get here it stops and I haven't had it since. My other symptoms of gas and noticing the blood once or twice and a positive FIT test are what worry me that I have something serious, which I know I have a colonoscopy coming up for. Any tips for avoiding reading dr google and not thinking of the worse outcome would be helpful.
It's been a while since I've been here.
Just a quick overview:
I'm 30 from England. I had a bit of a troubled upbringing as my mother was an alcoholic and I got a lot of abuse, I also have perfectionist traits and tend to bottle up my emotions - although I got better at dealing with my feelings and have not had any symptoms in over 2 years, now I am struggling again.
My history with what I believe were all psychosomatic:
- Chronic Hip Pain / Back Pain - 2 labral tear surgeries on both sides, this didn't fix my pain but discovering John Sarno and the TMS wiki and Georgie did, once I got over this I then started getting other symptoms below.
- Acid Reflux - 1 month
- Testicular Pain - 1.5months
- Constant Tension Headache - 2months / had this twice
- Dizziness - 1 month
- Eczema
Before leaving the Czech Republic, I got bronchitis and a nasty cough that lasted almost a month, this was common for me previously to get some symptoms before I travelled. When I got back to the UK for a month before heading to Madeira in March, I felt anxious about travelling again. I was also dealing with issues in a relationship and the end of a work contract so lost half of my income. This was when I started experiencing gut issues—diarrhoea, more gas, bloating—which improved a little once I got to Madeira. However, with the ongoing relationship problems and lack of stability in my life, the symptoms returned. I then noticed some bright red blood when I went to the toilet. This worsened my anxiety, and Googling the symptoms didn't help.
So, I went to the doctor in Madeira. He prescribed some tablets for anxiety and ordered a colonoscopy. A few days later, my mum died (you can see one of my old posts about my mother), so I returned to the UK and missed the colonoscopy appointment. I then saw a doctor in the UK who, after asking me some questions, thought that I just had some small tear somewhere and gave me a drink to take. A few days after my mum's funeral the diarrhoea stopped.
I went to the mountains in Bulgaria a week later, and the first week was without any issues, but I started getting anxious again and started getting diarrhoea. After a week of diarrhoea every day, I then noticed a small pool of bright red blood, so the next day I flew home. I did a stool test which came back positive for blood, and blood tests which say I am anaemic and something is off with my liver.
I certainly know the diarrhoea is stress-induced as every time I felt calmer this stopped, such as now coming back to the UK and being around family the moment I get here it stops and I haven't had it since. My other symptoms of gas and noticing the blood once or twice and a positive FIT test are what worry me that I have something serious, which I know I have a colonoscopy coming up for. Any tips for avoiding reading dr google and not thinking of the worse outcome would be helpful.
