I was doing well on this program. My wrist pain had all, but dissipated, I had a new symptom in my achilles tendon, but I knew I could cope with it and then I went on holiday for a month and took a whole month off of thinking about TMS too. I thought it would be good for me, I thought I've got this on the run I deserve a month off. Maybe I did, but the problem was finding the time and the motivation to start again after I got back to work, and so now 2 months later I finaly get back on the program. My pain hasn't increased too much and the tendon pain went away (turns out I was worried about buying a new pair of work shoes after my old comfortable ones broke), but I'm back to my old habits of overanalysing every little mistake and misdeed I make and my deep routed anger feels like its bubbling beneath the surface ready to hurt me again. I refuse to let this happen. To this end I'm going to share a mistake I made with you all. I told a lie a little white lie to someone in my company. This may not seem like much, but I feel bad about it and in my industry if you get a dishonnest reputation then you are going nowhere. See there I go again jumping to the worst possible senario. Heres hoping I can get back on track and deal with this.