It has always been about shame.An epiphany!

[Volcano1963]

Hi @cloud i want to send you more support. were you able to breathe through the panic? How is it now on the other side of yesterday?

There was always love but not expressed in a way that I felt accepted all the way regardless of any issues

I wonder if giving yourself your unconditional love and expressing your love to yourself might be an excercise worth trying. As i type this i wonder, how would i do that to myself? How has that looked like? Taking time to do the journal prompts from the structred education program on this wiki has been one way. the act of giving myself permission to spend time on my self-healing has been self healing.