I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Very long story short. I have an intensely HUGE abandonment complex, constantly afraid that friends and family have abandoned me, especially if I go any length of period of time without hearing from people. It’s a LOT more complex than that, but that’s the super basic geist of it. Often I’ll have irrational thoughts that people are against me and that people who I thought were “friends” were really not friends to begin with, and I have a tendency to sabotage relationships, cause I can’t stand not knowing where I stand with people - so I’d rather have certainty by destroying relationships. I can definitely trace this back to trauma I’ve had growing up. It’s intensely frightening when I’m triggered, I panic and feel a lot of intense emptiness and loneliness inside. I’ve definitely found DBT helpful and mindfulness. There are times I can recognize the thought patterns and behavioral patterns that come with BPD and “disconnect” and misidentify with it. Often the thoughts/feelings will than go away. But whenever I’m able to distance myself from my BPD….I ALWAYS end up with other psychological symptoms. Either it’ll will be replaced with obsessive-compulsive thoughts, or just general anxiety, or I’l just feel incredibly depressed for no identifiable reason. So I’m wondering if something as complex as a personality disorder like BPD can be treated as just another TMS equivalent?