I'm about half way through Dr. Sarno's book Healing Back Pain. I understand the basic premise, that some part of "myself" is causing "me" to feel physical pain to distract "me" from emotional pain. Given that my body has been torturing me non-stop 24/7 for over six years, I can't conceive of any emotional pain that would be worse than the physical pain I've endured. So what possible reason would some hidden part of "myself" want to distract "me" from emotional pain by making physical pain? What does the hidden part of "myself" gain from this horrific process? In fact, the pain itself has caused me considerable emotional distress far exceeding any emotional trauma I've experienced at any other time in my life. So if Dr. Sarno's theory is correct, this hidden part of "myself" has actually inflicted both emotional AND physical pain on "me" in order to distract "me" from some lesser emotional pain. What would be the point of that? Now, you notice I use the words "me" and "myself" in quotations. I use them to draw attention to a paradox. How can there be two versions of me working against each other? What is this hidden part of "myself" that is so willing to torture "me" with pain? Isn't that a kingdom divided against itself? It's much like Eckhart Tolle's question that came to him when in the midst of deep depression as he describes in the introduction to The Power of Now. "Am I one or two?"