Since I started the SEP, I've been feeling changed. The pain does not effect my life like it used to do, but it is still there. Sometimes more, sometimes less, I try to keep active and I succeed. But I feel confused. I don't think about what I wrote in the journal, but I think writing is clearing my mind on the background. Because I feel relieved, but I also feel like a headless cartoon character, running here and there but not really focusing on what I am doing. My mind is always on the next thing. It's like I have been on hold for a long time and now I want to start but don't know where to start from. Is anyone feeling similar after starting the programme?