Hi Everyone, I was very excited to see this forum. I read Healing Back Pain about a year ago just after I took a MBSR class. To be honest I read it to be able to fight with the folks who were telling me to read "the book that says its in your head"!!! What a terrible way to explain it. Especially since I was 12 years, 2 discectomies, and 3 herniated discs into pain. But by the end of the first chapter I was overcome by disbelief, joy, and yea, some anger, sadness and embarrassment about the root of my pain. This past year has been eye-opening as I try to discern types of pain and their causes. Did I work out too hard at the gym? Or did I pull something at the gym bc of something unexpressed. I've loved the high of feeling in control of my pain, and hated the lows of seriously challenging what needs medical attention. At times I feel exhausted trying to figure it out. I will have pain and think "oh come on! I wasn't thinking anything. Honest!" since reading the book, I've never had episodes as bad as they used to be - the kind where I stay home from work. however, I do have reoccurrences that are frustrating. for example, last weekend I went home. the entire family was coming into town and my sister was also starting wedding planning and my role is to play the tap-dancing buffer. Heading into it, I knew this would be heavy trigger territory. I was highly conscious of this- stayed in a hotel to get some respite, did my best belly breathing in the moment, meditated, etc. but still the Monday after I felt a pull during my workout. And afterwards was almost paralyzed. No amount of heat or ice would help. I thought it was my psoas, but after getting a , massage, I knew for sure it was definitely TMS. All week I've had pinching nerve pain on my lower left back. Kills when I sneeze - classic signs of my herniated disc. It will even start first thing in the AM, when I feel like my subconscious cant be that active yet! So frustrating. So, this has turned from an introduction to a plea for help. Looking forward to learning from you all.