dystonicrunner
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Today I experienced something kind of different. The rotating symptoms within a day has happened to me before, but it is usually fewer symptoms and they come with more intensity. But today I think I had every single symptom that I have experienced over the last year or so. Some have not occurred for months, and some were just stupid ("Reynauds in the summer? Please. <rolling eyes>) But even though all of them were making an appearance, they were all like this low grade level.
Perhaps my brain is trying to throw anything out there to see what sticks. But I've been trying hard to pay it no mind.
Today was also a day after a run day which tends to be where my symptoms get intense with the lie that I can hold on too that I "did too much." I know this cycle well and am trying to be consistent and not freak out after a day I had so much joy. I think I did pretty good today! Usually there is some major pain to obsess about, but today was a this different presentation and I did feel less obsessive. Not happy about them, more annoyed, but understanding why they were occurring.
For context, not only was it day after a run day, but tomorrow is filled with emotions as I will be attending a yearly event which is always quite stressful for me. I KNOW I will getting questions about my health and running from people who consistently fail to listen to me. (They ask the same questions at every single event we see each other). I don't anticipate I'll be explaining to them my new way of thinking, as they didn't even get the old medical explanation that I had a neurological disorder and there was nothing physically wrong with me -- they still think I'm recovering form a foot surgery that was a year and a half ago <rolling eyes again>. So... I don't think they'll be understanding TMS. Or more importantly listening to me and remembering what I say which really bothers me to my core. It makes me feel very frustrated and uncared for. (Did some journaling about this today).
And I also had a new one today - neck pain - Might be symbolic as tomorrow is going to be "a pain in the neck?"
Perhaps my brain is trying to throw anything out there to see what sticks. But I've been trying hard to pay it no mind.
Today was also a day after a run day which tends to be where my symptoms get intense with the lie that I can hold on too that I "did too much." I know this cycle well and am trying to be consistent and not freak out after a day I had so much joy. I think I did pretty good today! Usually there is some major pain to obsess about, but today was a this different presentation and I did feel less obsessive. Not happy about them, more annoyed, but understanding why they were occurring.
For context, not only was it day after a run day, but tomorrow is filled with emotions as I will be attending a yearly event which is always quite stressful for me. I KNOW I will getting questions about my health and running from people who consistently fail to listen to me. (They ask the same questions at every single event we see each other). I don't anticipate I'll be explaining to them my new way of thinking, as they didn't even get the old medical explanation that I had a neurological disorder and there was nothing physically wrong with me -- they still think I'm recovering form a foot surgery that was a year and a half ago <rolling eyes again>. So... I don't think they'll be understanding TMS. Or more importantly listening to me and remembering what I say which really bothers me to my core. It makes me feel very frustrated and uncared for. (Did some journaling about this today).
And I also had a new one today - neck pain - Might be symbolic as tomorrow is going to be "a pain in the neck?"