@winterhaven123
I'm very sorry to hear about what u have been & r going thru- the pain, the unnecessary surgery, the unsympathetic doctors & the whole uncertainty of what is going on.
The diagnosis of somatoform disorder simply means pain that cannot be diagnosed so when doctors say this they generally do not know what is going on. This however does not mean that your pain is not real, it just means the source is unknown which also means there is a likelyhood that it could be TMS.
The diagnosis of depression doesn't come as a surprise. After all who would not be depressed after they have been thru so much!
So u think u may have TMS which is why u r here & that is good because this a great starting point for many & also a place where u will get a lot of support.
Having said that my advice to u would be to see a TMS doctor first & foremost, as soon as u can if possible- not just a therapist. You need to see someone who is a qualified doctor & a TMS expert. This is very important if u r going to start off on the right foot & it will give u the motivation u will need to get better. U have been thru so much uncertainty that you must get assurance & a correct diagnosis from someone who is qualified to give u that. U need to hear it straight from the horse's mouth that what u have is indeed TMS otherwise any doubt will just interfere with your recovery.
A strong doctor patient relationship is also key in boosting your confidence & belief since u have been bounced around by so may unsympathetic practitioners.
U say u r in Florida & that Scott Brady is not taking any more patients. Would it be possible for u to travel to see someone else like maybe Dr Schubiner with all yr medical records? Although I have never met him personally others here on this forum have & may be able to tell u more about him, but the couple of times that I emailed him he has very kindly & promptly replied in a very reassuring manner. Apparently he spends 2 to 3 hours with each patient & is quite thorough.
I know the logistics of seeing him may be difficult but perhaps u could email him & if u feel that this may be an option then u could see him intially & always follow up with a therapist thru skype.
In the meantime do take whatever medication u feel u need that will help .
I wish u all the best.
Mala