I am very critical of myself. I overthink most of what I do. Some examples below: You have cellulite and it's just getting worse because you can't work out. Gross You said something mean yesterday at that party. Not cool. Everyone is going to find out that you aren't really a kind person. You should be better at letting go of that stuff from 6th grade. Why can't you move on and grow up. You are pathetic. You aren't sober enough and your program sucks right now. You should be better by now. (I have been a member of AA for over 17 years) You should not be sponsoring women, you aren't healthy enough. You have nothing to offer. You are selfish and self centered. You aren't taking care of your appearance. You look like crap. I thought you'd look better at 40. Your skin looks bad. You have rosacea and age spots. Ugly. Sucks you can't wear make up to cover it up. People will think your face looks bad. You probably aren't even doing this SEP right. People on here are going to know you are crazy and pathetic. You probably should be careful what you write on here. Pretty brutal. I would not tell another human being things like this but precisely the opposite. Went to counseling with my husband yesterday and said we need to resolve the issue of if he is willing to work on our marriage or not. We did not resolve it but at least I brought it up. Amazingly I did not fall apart crying in there because I have been crying about it since starting this program. The final decision is no decision. Again, this is what we did last year. We did make some slow progress with our time together and being kinder to one another. The therapist said that is closure but it isn't for me. I am trying to create my own temporary closure. To myself I'm saying "You can worry again after the holidays and while you are at therapy." Gives me some sort of way to try to let go. Of course I feel terrified right now but that might work for me. I'm always extra sensitive day or 2 after an intense session.