Hi, I don't post much here, I am mostly a lurker. I have been having a major flare up of back pain and buttock pain this week. It is a stinging, burning pain that drives me nuts when I'm at work. I notice it gets better at home, but it is always there. But this week it has really been annoying. I have known about TMS since April of last year. I try not to get discouraged, but I really am this week, honestly. There is a lot of stress on my job, and I am not sure that I can stay there...I need a job, but not one that is going to make me unhappy every day I'm there. I also have a brother who is divorcing after 30 years of marriage, but both he and his wife are coming to my house for Thanksgiving...I am very nervous of how it's going to go. Also, I have my first half marathon to run in over a year tomorrow. It is going to be 23 degrees when I start, and I am nervous about how that's all going to go. Basically, I am a nervous wreck right now. I don't understand why my back pain continues. I am starting to lose hope that it will ever go away. I've been to see Dr. Schubiner and he looked me over and looked at my films and declared it to be classic TMS. But still the pain is there...why??? I need some ideas of things I can do to heal. I read Healing Back Pain, The Great Pain Deception, The Mind Body Presription. I guess I am wondering if there is anybody out there that took a LONG time to see the pain fade away, and did they have these periodic flareups over time, but eventually they faded away...please someone give me some encouragement...I so appreciate it.