I was experiencing TMS symptoms last year and so I started seeing a TMS therapist. I was also on Zoloft because I was also experiencing anxiety and depression. I meditated for a while, stopped and noticed my symptoms return and then I started meditating again. Recently I noticed a resurgence in my TMS symptoms and doubt in TMS itself. That's when I thought something is really off. When those thoughts entered my awareness I started feeling anxiety again. I realize that I haven't really been meditating lately. I've been using it as a way to get some sleep but not to pay attention to what's going on with me. What makes this so much more difficult is that I have a 15 month old son and I want to get pregnant again very soon. I can find time to meditate but I have to do it on his schedule. Further more I'm worried that I won't be able to handle this anxiety and that I'll have to take medication again which the doctor's strongly advise against. I know meditation takes time to "kick-in" but I feel like I'm on a deadline since I was hoping to start fertility treatments soon. I'm so angry with myself for not keeping up the meditation in the first place and I hate this cycle of starting and stopping the meditation. It seems like I was fooling myself for a while thinking, "tomorrow I'll meditate properly". Also I feel like I have the added challenge of taking care of a toddler. Of course I will be talking with my therapist about this but I was hoping other people could relate.