Hello to all, I'm working hard on the program(I'm day ten) and I'm slowly trying to get back to my daily activities, including exercise. I'm also working hard on emotions and there are days like this that I'm living in when fear returns to be my worst enemy. Tonight after several nightmares I woke up in the middle of the night, I was very sleepy, but despite this I could not sleep and I was hit by a big backache (back pain was never a problem I always suffered of sciatica and buttocks pain without lumbar pain). Automatically I immediately thought that the pain was due to running yesterday (I started running 5/10 minutes every two days from a couple of weeks) and the fact of having started picking up my three month old son weighing 8 Kg . Soon after I tried to bring back my pain due to the trip of today (I'm going to find my parents two hours drive from where I live) and the anxiety of seeing my parents, the trip by car with two small children, pickup baggages and I have to recognize that it's all very stressful, especially after having slept little and badly. Right now I am very stressed, I know the cause is TMS, but there is a part of me that tries to counter this belief. I have read that these relapses are frequent, but how to lower the level of anxiety and try to be lucid? In days like this I realize how difficult it is not to believe what my body is communicating to me and I keep asking myself if I'm doing the right thing or if I'm doing something wrong. I am confused and today I would like to have a pill that can make me feel better. How do you behave when you think you are taking a step forward and two back?