if i could change one thing i think it would be my relationship with my brother. we were so so close as boys and started to drift apart in our early twenties, he has struggled with addition his entire adult life and i have chosen to not be apart of his self destruction. i miss him and the way we used to be. we talk briefly when he calls to speak to my son but there is alot of anger i hold towards him and his addiction. i am not sure what i can do to improve this relationship while he is still using.