Sometimes I will curse my anxiety, rsi and other symptoms and wish them to be gone. Sometimes all I want is to have some self confidence, self control and to show love and understanding to myself and others. Other times I may just want to better everyone at what I am doing. And although I do kind of want these things in my life at the same time I don't feel the urge of wanting to change anything in my life. I see where I am right now as perfect. My life is full of troubles but I don't really want it any other way. Just to have this knowledge just brings more hope and I guess trust towards what ever my circumstance are.