I therapist once said that I am the best possible version of myself. There is no better version. This is an optimistic view, but equally valid is the truth that I am also the worst possible version of myself; there is no worse version. My life is screwed up profoundly, partly because of TMS, and partly because of being weak/lost as a result of early childhood separation trauma. I have virtually no money and can't work. As a result of this, my father is still working to support me in his 70s. I simply feel like a loser. I try to have self-compassion and forgive myself for my mistakes, but I can't. I believe deep down that stronger people are "better" than the weak, and I'm weak. I try to look on the bright side, but it's hard to. Under the best of circumstances, it will be a few years before I can really START to get my life together. I'm already north of 40. I see grueling work per week for the rest of my life, likely without retirement since I have nothing at this point. I can't feel good about myself. I wonder if anyone else feels this way. Thanks.