Hotchocolatecup
New Member
Hi friends, I wanted to share an update. I devoured the structured educational program a few months ago and while I was very much into the content, I dropped off the forum/wiki for a while. I had been dealing with acute back pain for over 3 years coming back in acute episodes making it extremely difficult to bend over and lift my daughter from her crib. I explored more on the topic by reading Alan Gordon's "The Way Out" and doing a self-compassion workbook from Kristin Neff. I felt so confident that my symptoms were TMS that I gained courage to stop my back pain specific exercise program and start doing exercise that I really had loved before. For a little while my symptoms moved from my back to my left shoulder. And now even that is infrequent. I've only had one moment in the last two months when I went to pick up my baby at night where the back pain surfaced for a brief moment but in my mind I went "Oh that's interesting, haven't seen you for a while, I'm gonna be just fine and I'm going back to bed". It didn't come back. I think the biggest thing has been my attitude change toward the pain. I feel capable of the sensations my body can feel and I don't feel scared about them. I understand that my emotional state is worth attending to. I am beyond grateful I stumbled upon this dedicated community and I wish more people could discover it too. I now exercise the way I want to, lift my daughter every day, and have the blessed discovery that the pain that took up so much of my attention gradually just faded away from importance. What a gift to have.
