I don’t know what to do. I read Sarno’s books five years ago and knew it was me he was describing. I bought into the TMS diagnosis immediately and saw a lot of relief. Yet every 1-3 months since reading his books for the first time, I get a flare-up in my back that takes 1-2 weeks to go away. I re-read the books, I listen to the audiobooks, I talk to my brain. I’ve even seen Dr. Rashbaum in New York a couple times, who confirmed the TMS diagnosis and suggested I take his lecture series, which costs $900. I have not done the lectures for financial reasons. I buy into the TMS diagnosis 100%. I even ditched my foam roller and try not to take super hot showers so as to not reinforce the idea of anything being physically wrong. I try to be outcome independent. I meditate a lot (TM). I don’t journal a ton and I know I can improve in that area. Maybe I should see a therapist. I don’t know anymore. I’ve been in the throes of this for five days now. At times I can’t put my socks on. Yet yesterday I ran 10 miles and was pain-free the whole time. I ran because I knew my back is structurally fine. But the pain keeps coming back after. Especially after sleeping and after getting up from sitting. I know I’m conditioned, but I don’t know how to break the cycle. Any advice or wisdom is much appreciated. Thank you.