I met Dr. Sarno 7 years ago and now..?

Hello All! My name is Jacopo and I live in Nyc since almost 9 years, I moved here from Milano, Italy I was 31 years old.
I did have a plan how to succeed in my life but I was inside very scared of the new path.
So I started to develop back pain. I remember one night I woke up in so much pain I had to go to ER where they gave morphine shots, didnt work. I got home in pain.
I went to see, as most of you, many practitioners, I got an MRi who showed herniation l4-l5 l5-s1.
I was very close to consider surgery... then I was lucky enough to meet Dr. Sarno in person. (I believe it was 2007)
what a great man! I walked in his office quite skeptical. I left full of hope.
After a long first visit he told me straight to my face "your pain is your head go out and play!"
I started journaling in the morning, talking to the inner child at sunset (that brought lot of tears suddenly and quite unexpectedly)... after 15 days I was pain free!

July 2014
so now almost seven years passed by.. since my first visit. I am in a very different moment of my life. Almost 40! on july 22 on my flight back from italy I started to feel pain in my back again like I did 7-8 years ago!
why? what's wrong... I made the mistake of "forgetting" of Sarno. I went in full on a pattern that brought me to acupuncture, chiropractors, "NEW kind of surgery"... I got very scared this time I could not properly lift my left foot ( I still cant that much). Fear was the center of my days for the past month. "you are going to walk anymore if you dont take care of that pinched nerve I heard"
I got a new MRi and I have the same herniation I had 7 years ago. So why I was pain free for 7 years?
why I didnt think of Sarno? why this time the sciatica pain (or call it whatever you feel like..) severly blocked my foot and I was going to limp for the rest of my life?
I thought it was different... back then my back hurt... now I can not command my foot properly!
"this is something serious" I thought! How stupid of me.
3 Days ago I re-read dr.Sarno book mindbody.. and suddenly all made sense...
I am on the day 2 of your program... I will start to meditate and understand what's going on.
I feel much better... Yesterday I ran into say hello to my friend Nicola.
I was very happy. I am going to play tennis this weekend, with or without pain or numb foot.

I will be stronger than that.

my only concern but I guess I already replied to myself is... "if I was diagnosed with TMS 7 years ago by dr.Sarno himself, with prettymuch the same MRi, how can I be sure is the case now as well?"
Pain is zero, foot is acting not 100%

thank you!
Jacopo

p.s. I still dont know exactly what is my "anger" coming from but I am working on it.

 

Hi, Jacop. How fortunate you were to meet with Dr. Sarno and learn from him about TMS.
You then healed, and will heal again if you just keep believing your pain is from TMS repressed emotions
and/or a perfectionist and "goodist" personality. Doctors and therapy hasn't helped you. You just
have to believe again in TMS, totally, 100 percent, then you will heal.

You need to do journaling to discover where your inner anger is coming from,
probably from your childhood.

Say happy and enjoy the tennis playing. Don't expect it to hurt or it will.

 

Hi. I went to Dr. Sarno in 2007 too. It was a very enlightening experience.
I have similar herniations to what you mention, and figure I probably still do. But I don't have the back pain.
What changes/stressors have happened in your life in these past few months (or from the time you felt the back pain again)? There may be a connection to the physical pain.