Hello All! My name is Jacopo and I live in Nyc since almost 9 years, I moved here from Milano, Italy I was 31 years old. I did have a plan how to succeed in my life but I was inside very scared of the new path. So I started to develop back pain. I remember one night I woke up in so much pain I had to go to ER where they gave morphine shots, didnt work. I got home in pain. I went to see, as most of you, many practitioners, I got an MRi who showed herniation l4-l5 l5-s1. I was very close to consider surgery... then I was lucky enough to meet Dr. Sarno in person. (I believe it was 2007) what a great man! I walked in his office quite skeptical. I left full of hope. After a long first visit he told me straight to my face "your pain is your head go out and play!" I started journaling in the morning, talking to the inner child at sunset (that brought lot of tears suddenly and quite unexpectedly)... after 15 days I was pain free! July 2014 so now almost seven years passed by.. since my first visit. I am in a very different moment of my life. Almost 40! on july 22 on my flight back from italy I started to feel pain in my back again like I did 7-8 years ago! why? what's wrong... I made the mistake of "forgetting" of Sarno. I went in full on a pattern that brought me to acupuncture, chiropractors, "NEW kind of surgery"... I got very scared this time I could not properly lift my left foot ( I still cant that much). Fear was the center of my days for the past month. "you are going to walk anymore if you dont take care of that pinched nerve I heard" I got a new MRi and I have the same herniation I had 7 years ago. So why I was pain free for 7 years? why I didnt think of Sarno? why this time the sciatica pain (or call it whatever you feel like..) severly blocked my foot and I was going to limp for the rest of my life? I thought it was different... back then my back hurt... now I can not command my foot properly! "this is something serious" I thought! How stupid of me. 3 Days ago I re-read dr.Sarno book mindbody.. and suddenly all made sense... I am on the day 2 of your program... I will start to meditate and understand what's going on. I feel much better... Yesterday I ran into say hello to my friend Nicola. I was very happy. I am going to play tennis this weekend, with or without pain or numb foot. I will be stronger than that. my only concern but I guess I already replied to myself is... "if I was diagnosed with TMS 7 years ago by dr.Sarno himself, with prettymuch the same MRi, how can I be sure is the case now as well?" Pain is zero, foot is acting not 100% thank you! Jacopo p.s. I still dont know exactly what is my "anger" coming from but I am working on it.