I wasn't sure where to put this posting but I think its definitely in the success category. Today I had my first skydiving experience. I was in a free fall up at 13000 square feet and you know what I thought of? I yelled out "This is dedicated to all my TMS pals on the wiki forum!!" If it wasn't for the TMS recovery work, I would not have made the plan to go up. I would have been worried about my back pain. I would have stayed on the ground as my friends went up and jumped. Did my TMS act up? Absolutely!!! But not until I was all suited up and getting on to the plane. I was not worried last night. I was not worried this morning on the drive up. You know why? Because I've been watching my thoughts, I've been reading Eric and Walt's FABULOUS book God Does Not Want You To Be In Pain, I've been reading Claire Week's book. And I've been able to be in the moment and my pain keeps dissipating more and more everyday. What was mostly interesting about the jump, the fear and anxiety as the plane kept going higher and higher is that I could FEEL the flood of adrenalin and fear saturating my cells. Then I told myself, "Well, hell! It makes sense, doesn't it - to have some sense of being petrified when you are going to jump out of plane and trust some guy on your back to help you through? So I didn't get upset at myself, judge myself for these feelings. I didn't count on being completely nauseous the whole way down. I guess it was a shock reaction but it was kind of a bummer to not be able to enjoy it more. I won't do it again. I'm glad I did it this time. It was a fundraiser and we raised good money for the cause. But really, REALLY, it was for our TMS recovery group. To be able to say to you, if you are still in pain -that someday You Will Be Able to Do Things Like This!!! Sending a bucket load of love to everyone of you!