I have an enormous amount of rage. I would say I’m currently experiencing some sort of breakdown. I’m wondering what are some practical steps that can help. I’ve been journaling and breaking things but this rage is triggered daily by my mother with whom I live. It’s a long story but I am also grieving the loss of a child and I blame her for a lot of that loss and for her lack of love and compassion. I’m living in a nightmare. I could get out but my “physical” issues and fear are preventing me from considering my options. How can I move or change my situation when I feel this badly. I literally could get in my car and leave. I have some money. Leave for the Grand Canyon, somewhere beautiful. But I am afraid because of my symptoms. I need to get out. I can get out. But I am trapped by rage, grief, and fear. I am in a rage for what happened to my baby, and for how I am trapped now. I hate that woman. My therapist has said she is a narcissist, but I’m not sure. Lacking in empathy and unstable herself, yes. She told me that I have the choice to kill myself, and she’s made excuses for my ex who turned out to be a sexual predator. It’s almost as if she is a rape-apologist. Blaming me for the sexual assaults I experienced as well. I come from a very educated, cosmopolitan family but one would think this is a Jerry Springer show.