The thing I can't get out of my mind is multiple doctors (including a chiropractor and surgeon) telling me that my pain is caused by "bone on bone" pain because the a disc had deteriorated to almost nothing. It's disheartening because (1) there's nothing that can be done to help, and (2) I was told that running is always going to be painful. It's frustrating in that this explanation doesn't really cover why I cannot bend, why my hips hurt so much, why the pain is worse in the morning, and why swimming should bother me. I thought I was ready to take all of this on. I told my brain to stop restricting oxygen to my muscles and let me feel the bad feelings it's trying to protect me from, but today that list of depression symptoms scared me. I've had depression before. Is it normal to feel worse physically and emotionally when starting out with this program? Do I really need to stop and get counselling? This is not fun.