The more I understand the mind body connection, the more I realize there's actually nothing to get rid of. I've spent 13 years trying to get rid of anxiety and 9 years trying to get rid of neck tension/pain (and all of the issues that developed in between). After my last post yesterday, I started reciting my daily reminders out loud and I'm truly realizing pain isn't a problem. It's uncomfortable and hurts like hell, but in my case, it's because of fear and obsession. Pain and pleasure are the two major components of life and I've spent my whole life focusing on avoiding pain, instead of accepting it as a necessary part of life. I realize that's the reason behind my perfectionism and goodism. I'm a perfectionist because at some point during my childhood, I developed a belief that the more flawless my life is, the better chance I'll have of not encountering pain. At 33, I now see that perfectionism = fear. It's sooo clear now. TMS isn't a disease. It's not a new phenomenon. It's just a label that Dr. Sarno coined to help explain the scientific aspect of how the mind works with the body. The mind has ALWAYS been connected to the body though. I've has random pains and other health complaints throughout my life. I think the difference lies in two things: 1. I wasn't obsessed about pain when I was a child. 2. I had many pleasures that soothed me which counteracted the pain. Things became "chronic" when I no longer engaged in all the things that soothed me. Anyway, I would like advice on how to get back to living my life. I don't have a job or transportation, but I realize I need to be spending time engaging activities that aren't centered around pain and anxiety. I have more than enough proof that when I'm fully engaged in things that make me happy, I feel no pain or a major reduction in pain. I don't necessarily want to go back to a 9-5 (considering that's one of the major stressors that led to my chronic pain), but I would like to still make a living for myself somehow. I also want to be more patient with my nervous system and give it more time to feel safe and settled. Focusing on healing is really not healing. So is there anyone that went back to work before being 100% healed? If so, what type of job did you find? Any career changers? I'd like to find meaningful work. I believe the more I find things that shift my mindset in a positive direction, the better I feel inside and out.