Hello all! I was around a while back, but since getting better, I have gone out into the world to pursue my dreams! My TMS symptoms were mainly digestion related and now my stomach is a tank. I can digest anything! I do have some back pain from a fall at work, but I haven't explored that too much in relation to TMS, since I actually did injure it. It has been few months and is still tight, so I might explore some TMS stuff there. But that is not my immediate concern. My immediate concern is actually a sugar addiction. I have been trying for months to get this thing under control. I intellectually understand the detrimental effects of sugar on my body and yet I still cannot seem to shake it. Any time I am experiencing something that is contrary to what I really want in life, I always check back in here and usually figure it out. This, however, is very deep and has been with me a long time. So tonight I played with parts again and found some interesting things that hopefully someone can help me understand a bit more. I centered myself and went into a meditative state. I asked to speak with the part that wants to eat sugar all the time. I got a protector who was a big, strong Native man, made out of stone. I gained access to his exile; a small 5-6 year old girl in a nightgown with a teddy bear. She was huddled in a corner, afraid and sad. After getting her to open up a little bit, it turns out that she wants to eat sugar because it's fun and she remembers going to Old Sacramento and getting all these beautiful, fun, sugary treats. So sugar represents fun and freedom to her. After sharing her secrets something interesting happened - another exile who was hiding behind her showed up. The little girl got scared and I sensed a shadowy figure in the room and immediately threw a cage around it to protect the little girl. The thing in the cage was another part, but man, was she pissed! She was a huge ball of raging fire, exploding all over the place. I promised to let her out of the cage if she promised not to hurt the little girl. She agreed and I let her out. She was very angry and very aggressive. Every question I asked she flared up in flames. I asked her why she was hiding behind the little girl (who was soundly sleeping in my lap by this point.) She told me it was because she was so used to being rejected and ignored; that the little girl (who I call the "fairy" because of her love of fun and freedom) covered for her because she was so undesirable. Eventually, she loosened up as I told her that I was here to understand why she was so upset. She also told me that she mistrusts adults because they lie and say they will do things that they never end up doing. I have more work to do with this little one. She was a very feisty 8-10 year old. This was an abbreviated version of the whole process, because I don't want to take up too much time. What I'm looking for is to understand how an exile might hide behind another exile. Or if the fairy might be a different type of protector. And what does this mean for the sugar addiction? Am I missing something? I don't even know if I am doing the process right, or if I just went in all willy nilly and these aren't actually parts. Lol Any insight is greatly appreciated. Or any tips on how to better perform the process to yield better results. THANK YOU!