TeeJay
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I have been reading Dr. Sarno's books, as well as a couple others on mind-body stuff. After some fit and starts, this is my official first day of the program. I have been doing the procrastination-thing and getting off topic in my life.
The first book I read was actually by Adam Heller, and I had about a 20% pain reduction after reading. I bought his workbook too, but felt I needed more support, and you have to purchase his DVD's for a lot of money to get the support part.
Luckily, I met an awesome lady through meetup.org who introduced me to TMS Wiki, but then, I couldn't decide which program to use, as I have the perfectionist and procrastination personality traits. I wanted the "perfect" program. Heller's, Sarno's, TMSWiki. So, instead of continuing daily work on a program, I went a little out of control painting and making repairs to the outside of my house. It was great. I felt like I could do anything. However, the pain started getting worse again and I felt like I was back to where I started.
Well, this "forced" me to get back to a program. So, I chose TMSWiki. And I am so grateful that I did because this first day, right out of the shoot, I read about what happened to me. While I know I was pushing too hard working, I understand there is so much more going on. My husband and I started working on the house only on the weekends, together. But since I have been unable to work for 12 years because of the pain, I am home all the time. So, I started working on the house during the week too. I am a fast painter - really compulsive sometimes.
Anyway, today I realized the real source of my pain - I am angry and really pissed off. I am angry because I am having to do the work period. We can't afford to hire anyone to do it, so we have to do it ourselves or it doesn't get done. I feel angry at my husband because he has a hard time on the ladders, so I have had to do most of the ladder work, he doesn't work fast enough for my liking, etc. etc. Now this is not to put blame him, because he is doing what he needs to do to take care of himself, and I my rational mind knows that. But there is that part of me that resents having to even do it at all. So, instead of just slowing down and taking more breaks like a more healthy person would, the pain comes screaming back at me and I have to stop completely. That is where I am now.
The pain has slowed down a little, but my determination to do this program has really kicked in today, as I feels so fortunate to have come across a story exactly about what I am going through right now!!!! Awesome.
Plus, I talked to my friend who has TMS yesterday and she became 90% pain-free over the course of 8-10 weeks while doing this very program. She really gave me incentive, as well. Adios
The first book I read was actually by Adam Heller, and I had about a 20% pain reduction after reading. I bought his workbook too, but felt I needed more support, and you have to purchase his DVD's for a lot of money to get the support part.
Luckily, I met an awesome lady through meetup.org who introduced me to TMS Wiki, but then, I couldn't decide which program to use, as I have the perfectionist and procrastination personality traits. I wanted the "perfect" program. Heller's, Sarno's, TMSWiki. So, instead of continuing daily work on a program, I went a little out of control painting and making repairs to the outside of my house. It was great. I felt like I could do anything. However, the pain started getting worse again and I felt like I was back to where I started.
Well, this "forced" me to get back to a program. So, I chose TMSWiki. And I am so grateful that I did because this first day, right out of the shoot, I read about what happened to me. While I know I was pushing too hard working, I understand there is so much more going on. My husband and I started working on the house only on the weekends, together. But since I have been unable to work for 12 years because of the pain, I am home all the time. So, I started working on the house during the week too. I am a fast painter - really compulsive sometimes.
Anyway, today I realized the real source of my pain - I am angry and really pissed off. I am angry because I am having to do the work period. We can't afford to hire anyone to do it, so we have to do it ourselves or it doesn't get done. I feel angry at my husband because he has a hard time on the ladders, so I have had to do most of the ladder work, he doesn't work fast enough for my liking, etc. etc. Now this is not to put blame him, because he is doing what he needs to do to take care of himself, and I my rational mind knows that. But there is that part of me that resents having to even do it at all. So, instead of just slowing down and taking more breaks like a more healthy person would, the pain comes screaming back at me and I have to stop completely. That is where I am now.
The pain has slowed down a little, but my determination to do this program has really kicked in today, as I feels so fortunate to have come across a story exactly about what I am going through right now!!!! Awesome.
Plus, I talked to my friend who has TMS yesterday and she became 90% pain-free over the course of 8-10 weeks while doing this very program. She really gave me incentive, as well. Adios
