Day 1 I always knew

[fighter against IBS]

I have IBS and I am starting to understand that my symptoms are mental and accept this. I am very perfectionist, I always try to please others and I am very self critical. I believe that all of this just gets worse or it is the cause of all of my symptoms.

 

[Stella]

You are in the right place Fighter. Those very personality traits drive everything I do. I am furious with myself that I constantly drive myself to be perfect. If I have something coming up I play it over and over again in my mind to make sure I am perfect.

Then afterwards I replay over and over wacking myself on the head for one minor flaw. It is exhausting and painful mentally and physically. Journaling helps me immensely to understand what I do to myself, how furious it makes and a way to get all that emotion out of my body.

Welcome Fighter to an amazing journey.