So I’ve been at this for a full week now. All I’ve done is changed my thinking from “being a chronic ill hopeless case” to being “perfectly fine, just storing repressed emotions.” And holy moly! For the first time in a very long time, I want to be alive again. Now that I’m not telling myself what a problem I am that needs to be fixed, there’s nothing to fix. Since I’m not googling symptoms and treatments anymore, I have so much more free time. And I’m SO BORED It’s amazing! The energy I put towards googling and treatments, I’ve put towards living life. I’ve journaled 60 pages. Started getting creative in the kitchen. Accomplished things I put off for months. Reading for leisure. Caught up on tasks around the house. Picked up a hobby. Been more motivated at work. Less anxiety. I wish I could say it cured me. Having CPTSD, it’ll be a long road, but one I’m looking forward to. Even if this doesn’t help my chronic symptoms and pain, it’ll sure help the other aspects of my life haha.