Hi everybody! I just wrote out my story in my profile, and as it's a bit long, I'll just abbreviate (feel free to read the full story). I'm a new (first-time) mom, with a 3 month old baby, and a long history of various TMS symptoms. I am a total perfectionist, and actually have no problem being emotional and sensitive, so it's hard for me to determine which issues might be causing the pain. My current pain is mainly in my wrists ("mommy thumb" tendonitis) and back, with a bit of shoulder pain, and ongoing foot pain to a lesser extent. All of it comes and goes, but the tendonitis is pretty constant, and currently a big problem. I also fear the back pain, as it's completely debilitating when it strikes. I picked up "Healing Back Pain" a few weeks ago, and (coincidentally?) threw out my back that very night. I was in bed all the next day, and after crying dramatically and tragically about my miserable state, I started reading the book that...(hell, I'll get prophetic and make a bold statement)...changed my life. Thus far, it's completely changed my perspective and hope...yet it hasn't completely changed the pain (or my life, yet), so I'm looking for some encouragement, and I'm going to continue trying. Because I have a baby, it's hard to be consistent, and find time to journal, meditate, read, do affirmations, etc, etc. But I'm really trying. I started this Educational online program to give myself something to stick with. So this is the new official "Day 1" though I've already been doing reading and affirmations the past few weeks, with occasional journalling (and lots of thinking about this new fabulous Dr. Sarno fellow). I forced myself not to Google TMS for at least 2-3 weeks because I didn't want to read a bunch of disgruntled negative reviews that would rain on my new parade. Happily, I found this positive, encouraging community, and also see that there's a documentary forthcoming! Sorry to be so late to the party! I'm a serious perfectionist. Big problem, I know. It can paralyze me in my artistic (or all) pursuits, and I feel like that's the main source of my repressed rage, though it could be anything. Seriously. There's a million new possible emotions as a new mom (Anger towards the baby? My husband? that one isn't so repressed. Fear of being too much like my mother? Fear of raising this child with as many issues as I have? I already fear her teen years if she's anything like I was.) And there's my own childhood stuff...middle child issues, lots of insecurities, jealousy/rage towards my "perfect" sister, fear of upsetting my easy-to-anger, quick-to-yell father, etc. etc. Murders of classmates when I was in high school...constant fear of people dying...PTSD of a sort...my husband is laughing at the length of my "abbreviated" post. Sorry y'all! There's so much stuff in my brain at all times, it's no wonder I have TMS. So. How do I know which emotion is THE ONE? Do I need to just keep rehashing all of them? Journalling about everything? It seems like this will take years! Maybe, in my case, it's dozens and dozens of built up stressors. I already had one meditation session where I ended up sobbing for myself as a little girl, who just needed to be loved. This stuff is intense. But my wrist pain remains. I welcome any suggestions, help, encouragement, tips, etc. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of this community!