Writing and getting to my subconscious has been the key for me. Thinking about it in my head or out loud give me only about 20% of the same effect.
When I put pen to paper I can get trancelike -- perhaps that is what hypnosis is like ( if hypnosis is real, I don't know)?
I get in the zone and then I let my little self, or my teenage self, or other parts of my unconscious speak. Sometimes I'll ask them questions and have a conversation. Other times I let them have the floor, so to speak. Sometimes I ask myself who wants to speak.
I realize it sounds cray cray and like I'm the proverbial "Sybil" with multiple personalities but if you think about it, we were/are those same little people, time has just passed. So why not get back into how I felt then and let it spill out on the page?
I write and write and write and write. It's fast and messy and mostly illegible. It's the act of doing it, not the reading of it.
Mostly without thinking. Just let it spill out onto the page.
Sometimes lots of swearing, often times I draw pictures at the end.....
A little girl holding a balloon with the word anger in the balloon and then releasing the balloon and it going up, up, up.
I'm a crappy artist but who cares, nobody is going to see it.
I usually go from letting out a lot of garbage to being more uplifting but I don't plan it. There is no agenda. At most I sometimes start with a particular question and then let it rip from there.
Unlike most I don't throw mine away. I can't do that. It feels too precious despite the fact that I've never re-read them.
I know for most people it's best to throw away so they don't censor themself but I don't censor myself. I get in the zone and let 'er rip.
Wishing you good luck
@Bjv. I hope you get as much out of it as I do.