What I'm really struggling with right now is how truly physically painful this is. Like sometimes its so bad I want to cry. At least several, if not more, hours a day, on a day where i don't have something to keep my mind fully occupied. My busy often stressful job is a true outlet and blessing right now. Hope I didn't just jinx it! I know in my personal life it would be fair to say I'm "in crisis" (don't want to go into the details) I'd rather be sad, angry and go out with my friends to distract myself and cope, than be in too much pain to walk to meet them or walk a few blocks to a coffee shop with them. I am not feeling the feelings I would expect from this basically ongoing "crisis" [that caused the back and leg pain that I realized was TMS in the first place] but I really would like to if it would stop the pain. I think I'd rather feel the worst sadness I could ever imagine feeling than have this much physical pain so often and to a degree, controlling my life. Ideally, if I've got to deal with all this, how about some medium pain and medium sadness That would be ok by me! . I'd love some tips on how to cope when the pain crosses the line from tolerable to intolerable. Whatever "intolerable" happens to mean - because, technically, I'm tolerating it, despite wanting to cry from the pain and having a horrid time walking to the grocery store. Interesting, being in the grocery store, focusing on what i needed to buy, TMS brain was distracted enough and the pain was far less. Amazing. I know its ok to take some painkillers (for me, Aleve), maybe its that simple. With this particular bout, sitting is ok, standing and walking are the problem. Of course, a few months ago, it was the opposite.... TMS evidence if I ever saw any! So maybe my question is further refined: how to cope with intolerable pain while walking or how to distract myself while walking. Music helps, but not as much as buying groceries, apparently. Thanks!