In the past week I have been crying several times a day. These are some of the most intense tears and often hit me when I'm alone or even when trying to have fun with people. I'm you g thru a divorce but even before that there was always this hole that felt like in my chest. I'm seeing a tms therapist who thinks the crying is good given everything I'm going thru. However my pain is skyrocketing and all of my symptoms from last year are getting worse. I'm also starting to wonder if the change in weather could be causing pain. I have deep fears of being alone and losing my friend even though I'm ending the relatio ship. This past week were lawyer and realtor meetings. I just feel like I can't fill the hole in my chest. I try to watch a movie and I can't focus and start crying more. Wow times 4 times a day. I just don't ever seen to cry it all out. And like I said this was there before the breakup. Also. I stopped drinking 3 weeks ago and was doing it on almost a daily basis to numb that hole. I just am scared that it won't ever end. I cry such intense tears without even journaling.