Dear community! I have not actively participated on this board so far but have dropped in once in a while regulary the last couple of years on my search for healing. Now that I have found something that worked for me I want to share my experience so maybe it might help somebody else. About myself: I am a 34 year old male from europe who works as a lawyer and has two small kids under the age of four. Oh yeah, and I am not a native english speaker so if you find mistakes in my spelling or grammar feel free to keep them How the pain started: 9 years ago (2012) at the age of 26 I broke one of my spinal disks on my mid back. I was incredible lucky. Doctors said everything healed fine and prescribed physio therapy which I did attend. The next 3 years I encounteded muscle pain once in a while and attributed it to be more sensitive to weather changes. I just assumed I have to live with that from now on and it wasn´t that bad as far as i can remember. In 2015 after finishing my law degree I entered into my first job which was a very stressful time. A few months into my first job I tried cross fit (I experimented with weight lifting a bit before) and one day while practicing a overhead exercise (I think it was the snatch) i felt a pain close to where I had my disk injury. The pain did not go away even after a few days had passed. It was a deep muscle pain and my muscles at that place in my back were always very tight. I visited countless doctors, had MRs, different physio therapists but they all kept telling me my back was ok and they could not find a reason for my pain. My GP prescriped me anti depressants to lower my pain level which had horrible side effects. I was in pain all the time and I believed I was broken at the age of 29. I was afraid, depressed and it was overall a very dark time for me and my wife. All I wanted was to be pain free. On some days the pain was lower and on some days I was in no pain at all. But the pain would always came back to me. I am not the guy who usually beliefs in alternative medicine a lot but since I was desperate I tried different things from shiatsu to craniosacral therapy to grinberg method, tapping and so on. I spent a lot of time and money but it did not help whatsoever. Finally I stumbled across Dr. Sarnos "Healing back pain" and it completely changed my perspective that physiologically nothing might be wrong with me. I quickly bought into the idea that it was all my subconcious mind acting up but I had no idea how to access my subconcious mind and work things out. I read "the subconscious mind" by Joseph Murphy and was more and more intrigued by the science of the subconscious mind but whatever I tried it did not work. After about 2 to 3 years of back pain and changing to a new job my backpain got better but now my hip started to hurt. So the last 2 years a struggled with reaccuring hip pain that sometimes was so excruciating that I couldn´t sit anymore. Desperation kicked in and reached it´s peak this Mai in 2020. How the pain left: While struggling with all this pain for years I found out that the wife of a close friend of mine got licensed and started her own "emotion code" practice and I knew a few people who claimed that it has helped them quite a bit. Since I already had tried so many different alternative approaches I was not really interested in spending my money on something new that most likely would not help anyway. So it took me a few years till I finally approached her and scheduled an appointment. I didn´t know anything about the methode she practiced expect that it was about releasing trapped emotions. To be honest - for me as a lawyer who is more into science it felt a bit wierd. But I didn´t really have a lot to loose so I gave it a shot and after a few sessions and removing a lot of trapped emotions that were the cause of my pain my pain decreased immensely and got less and less frequent. The only problem I had now - I was depended on my physical therapist for pain release. If I had stressful or emotional experience that triggered a pain response I could only hope to get an appointment soon. And what would I do if my therapist ever moved away? And then came the first lockdown in march. For different reasons this was a very stressful time for me. I was in so much pain I couldn´t sit anymore. My glutes medius was on fire and my doctor had absolutely no idea why. I got injections but it didn´t help anything. And I could not see my therapist. So the only way out I could see for myself was to learn how to do it myself. I bought the book "emotion code" by Bradley Nelson on amazon for about 20 euros and read it in a few days. It was actually quite an easy read and since I already knew how the sessions worked it was not long before I tried the methode out on myself. I am pain free for about 6 months now. A started weight lifting again; I squat and deadlift and have no issues. And if I feel my hips starting to hurt again I know that something is bothering my subconscious mind and start to treat myself and release the trapped emotion. I don´t know if that will work for anybody else. I don´t even know why or how it works really. I just know it worked for me for 6 months now and I am so grateful that by coincidence I found this. Maybe it can be beneficial to someone else as well.