Hey all, this is probably going to be a pretty negative post, but I do need to put this out there because it's been gnawing at me for a while now. So one of my biggest hurdles has been finding a sense of peace and safety when this world and life in general just kinda seem like garbage. There is so much suffering, so much misery in this world, that it weighs me down and leaves me continually pondering the question, "what is the is the point of all this shit?" I've been reading a lot self help books, practicing meditation, trying to just observe thoughts instead of engaging with them in self-defeating ways, but I always return to my baseline which is an extreme sense of unease and existential dread. I want to feel better but don't know how. I'm exhausted from having to struggle so hard to regain homeostasis.