I have a tendency to avoid what's uncomfortable, while working hard and suppressing my emotions to cope. This creates more fear, more hesitation, more overthinking, more stress, and more burnout as it's easy to think to the point of not paying attention and blanking out when you have to remember what you were doing. This has made me a fearful and exhausted person after years of anxiety and disorganized, scatterbrained thinking and that's not who I want to be. How do I become someone who is engaged, confident, clever, and thriving? I know perfection does not exist and I have seen other people with stress-induced physical symptoms be self aware, friendly, and doing well in their life. How do I stop making excuses, having a constant impostor syndrome/fear of failure, and being indecisive and actually getting on with life instead of getting lost in my thoughts? I'm trying to manifest becoming a more healthy and happy person and not blame it on external noise and situations or on "brain wiring". Also, I want to be proactive instead of reactive, and that means being my biggest cheerleader, willing to ask questions, execute plans, and being flexible to change.