Hi all, Male in his late twenties here. Over-worked myself over a year or so into a state where I thought I was dying, and eventually crashed with dizziness, nausea, sound sensitivity and a headache in mid January. Took a break from work, but continued other activities. I was working part-time and running my own business during this time (both software development). Since mid January, I've had enough strange experiences to know that I don't have to surrender to this whole thing, but I'm also not sure how to get better. The symptoms have been wandering around. Right now I'm basically house-bound staying with a relative. Feels like I'm stuck on permanent ON, but I get insomnia even from just hanging around the house and spending "too much" time with the people here. They help me a lot though, from meals to errands, and I'm very thankful for them. This is what I'm experiencing now; symptoms have been wandering around a bit in the past: - Palpitations - Anxiety, panicky feelings - Nausea - Burning sensations in head, hands and feet - Occasionally depressed - Muscle spasms when trying to rest - Out-of-body feelings when resting - Tinnitus - Insomnia exacerbated by activity Tried moving back home to my place but crashed really hard and felt so bad my mind was wandering to thoughts about ending it. Found the TMS book and this forum by accident. I'm waiting for the book to arrive by mail. I feel like rest is not making this thing any better, but I'm not sure how to make progress. Tried anti-depressants but they give me lucid nightmares with really bad out-of-body experiences. The sleeping pills I've tried have no effect. I basically have to just wander around the house aimlessly doing pretty much nothing, with a short walk outside, to get some good sleep. One thing I have realized over the months is how bad I have treated myself basically ever since I had the power to make my own decisions. Always put my psychological needs aside for something that I "should" do, or even thought I wanted to do through some silly justification. I've also learned to do relaxing activities, take walks and enjoy the scenery, eat and drink slowly. That's something at least. But I feel like my brain is still in this perpetual state of fear where any physical activity (even talking too much) revves up the body and gets me another night of insomnia. The record is four nights in a row. I have contact with a doctor who is mostly focused on medication. I'm also talking with a psychologist. That's about it. Edit: I also exposed myself to information that was very disturbing to me, and I realize now that I did not stop to think about how this affected me before continuing with it. I think this plays a big part.