Hi, my name is Carey and I have TMS. This is my day 1 post, but I had problems registering so am already a few days past that in the program. I developed "tennis elbow" in both arms in the spring of 2003. When I first went to the doctor, I couldn't figure out what activity had caused it. Eventually I decided it was from reading (holding the books). At the time I was in grad school and had just read a really good but heavy 600-page hardback book. I got a book holder which I have used since then, but the problem continued and more and more activities grew painful. I did RICE, ibuprofen, cortisone shots, etc. The pain continued for about 5 years until I finally got some relief by doing physical therapy and stopping many activities that had "caused" the pain. A little over two years ago, I started learning how to paint. I was painting almost every day for 1-2 hours and loving it. After two months, my elbows started hurting again. I stopped painting and resumed physical therapy. Skipping over many of the details, over the next two years, I started avoiding more and more activities because of pain during or afterwards or the fear of pain, everything from using the computer at work to brushing my teeth or flushing the toilet. The pain spread to the insides and backs of my elbows as well. I was spending at least an hour a day doing stretching, physical therapy exercises, massaging, heating, and icing, but to no avail. I got to the point where I felt that barring a miracle, I would just have to consider myself disabled for the rest of my life (I'm still in my 30's). Then a couple weeks ago, I stumbled across someone's web posting stating how she had healed her "tennis elbow" by following Dr. John Sarno's method. I read Dr. Schechter's book "Think Away Your Pain" and put away my elbow braces, heating pads, ice packs, and stopped stretching and exercising. Things I am encouraged by: - There is hope of complete healing! - I have had a few times over the past couple weeks where I was able to do both daily and fun activities with no pain during or afterwards. - I have 4 of the 6 TMS tender points. Dr. Schechter mentioned that not everyone has them, but even 2 is a strong correlation with TMS. (By the way, for anyone else who has them, do they go away once you're healed?) - I fit the profile of TMS patients in being a perfectionist (though I consider myself a recovering perfectionist since I've tried to change over the years) and spending countless hours searching for new treatments or cures. - I do see some emotional correlations to both periods when I developed elbow problems. - I have read a few stories of people with "tennis elbow" who have been fully cured by treating it as TMS. - My husband and good friends are supportive of this diagnosis and do not think I'm crazy for considering it. - Since TMS doesn't cause long-term damage, I can do things I love to do even if they still hurt sometimes. (For me, the pain levels are not that bad, it was mostly the fear of making it worse and doing permanent damage.) - I've never heard of anyone else who developed tennis elbow from reading books. It's actually less believable than thinking it's caused by emotions. - I went to the orthopedist in July after the pain spread to additional areas of the elbow. When he asked me to do a few extensions to see if they were painful, he couldn't find any evidence of problems. Things I am discouraged by: - I still have relapses where I start having pain again after doing certain activities. - There are a lot fewer stories about people being healed from "tennis elbow", and I read one story of someone who had been healed of other symptoms but struggled to get the elbow problem to heal. - Like many, I still have some doubts sometimes, and worry that I will permanently damage my elbows.