Hi there. I've been reading up on TMS for awhile now and fully believe in it - i've had 2 several month long episodes happen in the past few years and once I had a clean "scan" I was able to talk my issues into going away. I saw a TMS doc a few weeks ago who said i fit the criteria, but for some reason I still can't fully believe it for myself just yet this time around. I've been in pain for almost a year now - started with lower back ache and abdominal cramps but lots add'l aches and pains and movement all over my body - now i have pain under my lower ribs, weird shoulder pain when i take a deep breath and a weird spacy headache feeling over the past few weeks. I've had extensive bloodwork, lumbar spine mri, various ultrasounds and a ct scan - all with nothing really conclusive. Still i can't let it go. Every time I let myself try to not focus and tell myself its due to anxiety and stress, I"m good for a day or two and then my pain is there and I get that fear back. My biggest fear is that there is something really horribly wrong with me and that the doctors are missing it and one day it'll be too late and it'll be so far gone that there will be nothing to do to save me. Sounds insane when I say it out loud, and i hate that my brain can't stop the madness. I signed up for a yoga program for the month, am getting back into therapy and I started this program last night and I'm really trying today. What I'm just trying to focus on today is breathing. One thing I really noticed when I started to pay attention is that I don't breathe properly. When I focus on my breathing, and take slow deep breaths, I feel like I can't breathe - so that's really showing me that i just take shallow breaths all day long and may be contributing to my anxiety levels. I'm really hoping this program is the start to my healing! I'm looking forward to working through the 30 days.