Pardon the dramatic title, I'm in a goofy mood this morning. This last week has been hope-filled. My pain is not gone, but my fear of aggravating it has lost its power. Any time it pops up I remind myself that it isn't physical and that I'm fine. Journaling doesn't make it go away necessarily, but not caring about it stops it from getting worse. Being able to work out 6 days last week (weights and running!) has had a huge mental health boost, and the lack of increased pain has really started to shift my belief in this. Another big clue has been a shifting of pain from my left hip to my right. My right's never hurt before. I almost laughed when I felt it. It's as if my brain was saying "hey uhhh, is this gonna work?" Not now, dummy. You blew your chance. Admittedly I'm still not at 100% acceptance. Some fears I haven't totally accepted: How can I need so much work if Dr. Sarno was curing people in two visits? What if I rely on fitness again as an antidepressant and it (once again) is pulled out from under me by injury? How do I know what symptoms are TMS and what aren't? Can I even trust my body anymore? What if this week has been placebo? BUT I worked out for 6 days last week and my pain stayed the same or decreased. That's enough to keep me coming back every morning for now. That's amazing. Hope you all experience something similar.