Hitting mental fatigue

My symptom imperative changes are always like that, it changes to a new location, then comes back to the usual one, and now I have one more spot of pain. It used to frustrate me a lot, but since I started to use these spots for somatic awareness, they're gradually annoying me less.

One thing that I noted in your messages is that you kinda expect the pain to behave like it's described in the TMS books and videos. Those are simplifications of very complex brain interactions and a lot of times what is shown is not what happens on a daily basis. That brings up what Lorimer Moseley has been talking about the current fragile state of TMS teaching. If you watch Jim Prussack's success stories you'll see they're always very unique and won't follow any script.

Anyway, you have the right to be frustated and in anger. It's part of the journey.

 

Sometimes I think things like the Curable app can do more harm than good. They said they excluded people with sciatica but no back pain because it was more likely to be structural. Very confusing!

Going to try to keep up my running schedule today, fingers crossed!

 

I think I got some clarification on it in Nicole's group. [screenshot deleted per request ]

 

I did get my run in today but I think I'm even more convinced it's actual shin splints. I don't know how given all the facts, but I also know I can't bring myself to go to another doctor. I am so burnt out on medicine. I don't want to quit running but I just don't know anymore.

 

Also whoa that screenshot was much smaller on my phone. LOL edited it.

 

good to know, I downloaded it but didn't start using it yet.

I am glad you got your run in. I know exactly what you mean I sometimes say to myself, well would I rather deal with the pain and its consequences than go to another doctor and deal with all that again. The answer although awful, is yes I'd rather try and fight this on my own now.

 

Haven't weighed myself in a couple days on the good news side. More pain than ever on the bad.

 

throw away the scale, if you don't have it, you can't use it.

If that is a TMS behavior of yours (like my obsession with counting calories was), it may be replaced with pain. That doesn't mean I think you should weigh yourself to rid the pain, just like I don't think I should go back to logging every calorie I've even in My Fitness Pal as what a waste of time and mental energy that was for 10 years.

 

Are you able to delete my screenshot? Won't let me edit.

 

Thank you!