I feel more relaxed just reading the title! Thanks for that.
I just finished a discussion with my Sufi group on the "fallow times" in our life. I am thinking that the way we "do" including "doing who we think we need to be" is so fundamental to our lives, and so needful of rest sometimes.
I think this is true in TMS experience, perhaps an important function of this affliction: that we are stopped in our lives by symptoms so that something else might happen. And I do think that this "happening," this unstructured space we're invited into takes us closer to what we normally avoid, including what we don't feel down deep.
Part of the "resting time" ----whether it is in sleep, or meditation, or a moment of not knowing, is that we're not in control and that we "know less" than we normally do. This is scary for me. I don't want to slow down! I don't want to "know less." As hard as it is, not identifying with knowing or getting something done, even getting better is a deep, mysterious part of our lives. The Dark Night of Soul.
I understand
Miller the fear of the unknown. I feel in your approach that even in this process you're doing, there is little to actually "do" and that your gentle intention, your kindness toward yourself, your wish for healing is quite enough in itself. I feel a kindness toward yourself about your fear. I'm thinking that just knowing that something wants to reveal itself, some important thing(s) perhaps, and being patient about the arrival is a wonderful way to understand this for yourself.
